It's Never Too Late...

In light of so many celebrities and non-celebrities who have passed away recently I wonder what people will remember most about them when they reflect back on their lives. Do their good deeds, charity, talents, and compassion outweigh any negative they may be attributed to them? In life we all go through different stages. At times we may be happy, giving, loving, loyal and at other times not so much. When I think about the legacy that I will leave behind I want it to be one where my good far outweighs my bad. No one is perfect, we are all faced with trials and tribulations in this life, and in spite of it all, we all have the ability to decide how much we are willing to love, to care, and to give. I must admit I haven't always been the most positive person. I’ve had rough patches, been sad, and down, and unfortunately that may have been reflected in the way I treated or was seen by others. Knowing this about myself I have made a sincere effort to make personal changes..changes for the better, because when it's all said and done, I want to be known as someone who gave to others in whatever way possible, not someone who depleted their happiness with my issues (yes! this can happen). So I choose to live life to the fullest, helping myself and others along the way. I personally believe that it's never too late to make a change, to make a difference, to think positive rather than negative, to give instead of take...

So how will you be remembered..

I will leave you with a quote from a movie that I watched recently that really gave me something to think about when I heard it, I hope it does the same for you.. "I hope that you've lived a life that you're proud of and if not that you have the strength to start over"....

It's Never Too Late..

My Pen and My Paper..

Writing has always been therapeutic for me. Since I was a little girl I've written poems, short stories, thoughts, dreams, goals and more. To me, it's one of the most beautiful forms of self-expression. I've always been careful with what I write, keeping it mostly to myself, guarding it from the rest of the world. Well, I'm attempting to branch out just a little now with this blog. Although I have a few posts that I've published here so far, I've only invited one friend to read. Well today I'll extend myself a little further and invite a few more. I plan to be more consistent with my postings and we'll see how this thing goes. I'm attempting to let down my guard just a little and open myself up.. Here I go..

Lasting Impressions...

About a year or so ago I joined facebook based on a recommendation from a friend who thought it was one of the easiest ways he had come across to stay in contact with current friends and to link up with old ones. It sounded pretty cool so I jumped on it. So far I've had nothing but good experiences.. I've had the chance to stay up to date with what all my good homies are doing and have reconnected with some people from my past who were near and dear to me. It's been great to see how so many of my friends from high school and beyond have blossomed into positive, productive, and professional beings.

A few days ago I got a friend request from a guy I went to elementary school with. Initially I looked at his profile picture and thought, I don't know him, and then looked at his name and thought ooooohhhhh I remember now. We weren't the tightest of the tight but he was cool peoples. I accepted his friend request and had intentions on sending him a "hey, how ya doing" but hadn't gotten around to it before he sent me a message. His message thanked me for accepting him as a friend and he went on to say that he had to have me as a friend because he had heard my name "just about everyday" (I'm sure it wasn't that much) from childhood to adulthood. He says that a mutual friend from school "never ever" stopped talking about me. He says "it was like you were Laura Winslow and he was Steve Erkle", now that was hilarious. He says "as I look back over life it's just one of those things that you first grin and then smile about". WOW!! I wasn't expecting that.

I messaged him back and told him that I thought that was really funny. I really didn't know what else to say about his comments except to ask if he still maintained contact with the mutual friend. I sent the message and for some reason I kept trying to remember the last time I'd talked to "Steve" (LOL) and if I was kind to him the last time we talked. See, we had a lil puppy love type thing going on in 5th grade or so, but in 6th grade I changed schools and we lost frequent contact. I remember that he would call me from time to time, but I have to admit that I don't remember if I was always the kindest when he did. Pre-teen/teen girls can be harsh at times, well at least I was, I had moved on and met new people and was doing new things. Throughout middle and high school he would call on occasion just to touch bases. To think about it, I also remember by brother telling me that he saw him a while back and that he asked about me.

Anywho, I get another message this morning that says that "I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but "Steve" passed away about three years back"..My heart sank. He continues by saying that "that's why it was so important to me that I added you as a friend..because he spoke so highly of you". He says "I haven't seen you since grade school, but me and everybody else knows who you are thanks to "Steve". He was your biggest fan" WHAT?!? WOW!! I was stunned, First, I couldn't believe that he had passed and two that he had thought about me for so many years. Me..really..wow!!

I find myself being overly emotional these days, but this whole thing really touched me. I thought to myself that maybe I had begun contemplating whether or not I had been nice to him the last time we had contact because I could sense something in this whole situation. I only went to school with "Steve" for two years in 4th and 5th grades and he "never ever" stopped talking about me, so his friend says.

I am reminded through this experience about the importance of being kind and compassionate to others, you just never know what kind of impression you may make on them.. This situation will be with me for awhile, and I have really learned so much from it. I am saddened by the loss, but vow to soften my heart to all those I come in contact with no matter what the situation. You just never know what kind of lasting impression you may make...

RIP....